Here I sit on New Year’s Day, bored, unhappy with my job,
scrolling through pinterest looking for something to do, some way to earn extra
money, some way to change my career.
Finally the realization hits that all year my thoughts have been
swirling around journaling, editing, proofreading, blogging, writing. So why aren’t I doing it?
A new resolution:
Just do it. Don’t worry about
whether it will work or if anyone will read it.
Writing is catharsis, so just sit down and write something! My 40th birthday is exactly one
week away, and while some wonderful things have happened during those 40 years,
I would say they have been marked with a pattern of victim-mindset, lack of
confidence, and fear. This will also
serve as another step away from that habit of self-defeatism. I will do it, say it, mean it, and not
apologize for being who I am. That doesn’t
have to mean selfishness or callousness.
I can still strive to be compassionate, thoughtful, tactful, honest and
patient. I just don’t have to sacrifice
myself to get there.
